I'm 21 now and i can honestly say that i have never compeltely fallen in love with anyone. I always ended up dating & getting into relationships out of infatuation, financial status, & material objects. I reflect back and i see that i have dated people who wanted to date me. I've never had really a variety of my own choices. This i regret & now i feel my carnal desire craving for a true love that get's the best of me & all of me. I want someone that i can depend on & for that person to be equally dependent on me. My best friend. Someone who treats me exactly the way i want to be treated. I dont want to be afraid of love anymore. For so many years i been so petrified to give any personal part of me. It's caused me to put up such a good wall, i began believing how much i didn't give a fcuk. Knowing all along that i was completely lying to myself. Just because of one guy's mistake, i'm making it so hard for everyone to get close to me. That's so not fair. So I buried that wall and started fresh with an open mind, a different set of rules, as well as a new game plan. So far it has introduced quite a few of new faces to my life but one of them definately has my attention.. But i'm not kissing & telling just yet guys. Let's see how this plays out. I'll be sure to keep you posted ;]
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